Seeking for your holy place!!

Sweetness

2010-03-01T23:46:00.001+11:00

Enjoy every single sweetness in my life! Even though life is hard, if we live with a positive mindset, we still can enjoy every single moment.

I totally understand that we always pursue a perfect life base on what we want. That's because we live our lives without God. We do have wills, however, if we can't achieve the goal that we set, does it mean our lives are meaningless? Or can we think in different way that we might have not prepared enough for this task or it isn't the right time to have it.

I believe that God has already planned everything in advance. What we can do is to wait for the right moment coming!

The time we are waiting actually can be more meaningful than the moment we get the result. Maybe what we can get from the result is just 'Yes' or 'No'! But during the time we wait, hundreds thousands of experiences we have been being gone through. Don't you think it is worthy than the result?

I remember what pastor preached before, he said that God is squeezing all the sweetness in our life. If we have sense to understand what God is doing, we can enjoy our imperfect life and prepare for the everlasting life!

May God bless all my lovely friends! Amen!

Come to Jesus

2010-01-18T13:01:00.001+11:00

睡得很迟，太多的杂念，昨夜的宁静再次被严重地打扰。混乱的思绪充斥着疲倦的大脑神经，浮躁不安的心情淹没了原有的安静、祥和，我到底怎么了？昨天的主题——如何寻找神的回应，我被这主题触动，但我并享受那场讲道，可能是因为个人风格的问题，我发现我的笑声并不发自内心。太多的話想要说，太多的问题需要处理，太多的经历需要累积，太多的太多，对我来说是不能承受之重！神說，不需要害怕，不需要惊慌，就算全世界离弃你，神也一定会陪伴在你的身边，让你看到希望之光！神說，你要坚定你的信心，抓牢你的信仰，當你把一切交于神的手中时，你就能经历那生命之晕！就像出生的婴儿那样简单，大声地叫喊，大声地向神的国度叫喊，喊声惊天动地，响彻云霄，请求圣灵的环绕，请求神的回应。在神的荣耀中，寻找、感受不一样的安宁。Amen！

Chris Rice - Untitled Hymn (Come To Jesus)

Weak and wounded sinner
Lost and left to die
O, raise your head, for love is passing by
Come to Jesus
Come to Jesus
Come to Jesus and live!

Now your burden's lifted
And carried far away
And precious blood has washed away the stain,
so sing to Jesus
Sing to Jesus
Sing to Jesus and live!

And like a newborn baby
Don't be afraid to crawl
And remember when you walk Sometimes we fall...
so Fall on Jesus
Fall on Jesus
Fall on Jesus and live!

Sometimes the way is lonely
And steep and filled with pain
So if your sky is dark and pours the rain,
then Cry to Jesus
Cry to Jesus
Cry to Jesus and live!

O, and when the love spills over
And music fills the night
And when you can't contain your joy inside,
then Dance for Jesus
Dance for Jesus
Dance for Jesus and live!

And with your final heartbeat
Kiss the world goodbye
Then go in peace,
and laugh on Glory's side,
and Fly to Jesus
Fly to Jesus
Fly to Jesus and live!

2010-01-11T12:38:00.002+11:00

2009.12.26.

今年的马来西亚的这趟旅程又让我年轻了一回！这里的年轻聚会和墨尔本有很大的区别，这里所说的区别并没有高低之分，仅仅是指不一样的存在方式。很明显大马这里的教会，年轻人非常活跃，而且组织性很强，最值得一赞的是他们之间的情谊深厚，就像亲兄弟姐妹一般。但有那么一点不足就是他们这么坚固的关系有时会忽略外面的人，从而使他们不敢触碰和加入这个团体。我们的教会相对来说比较安静，但是在赞美、敬拜和祈祷的环节也是很强的，成长的速度也非常快。对我来说，刚接触大马这边的人和环境时会觉得有一点不适应，因为处事方式的不同和文化的问题；还有就是因为这边的人都很年轻，初中、高中生占了一大半，要找到合适的话题并不容易。在澳洲，因为教会中有一大部分人都是留学生或者移民，所以感觉容易接近一些。在大约两个星期之前，我很想早点回澳洲，但现在却有种不舍的感觉，可能是因为适应了吧。参加了这里的圣诞聚会和露营，感觉和大家靠近了一些，所以就有不舍吧。

下星期三就要回墨尔本了，要开始筹划明年的去向，找新住处就是首要解决的问题。因为种种原因，SAYMA和ASGAR要搬走了，我和ONNI就要另某住处。之后就是让人头疼的去留问题，我有足够的原因要留在墨尔本，但我有足够的能力留下吗？一切都跟随神的安排就好了!

2009.12.30.

今晚就要回墨尔本了，既有些兴奋，又有些不舍。从来没有这么心情平和，要面对始终要面对，要解决的终究要解决，拥有一颗平常心就能做到处变不惊。感谢主给我这种力量，这趟旅程，没有白过！

2010.1.10.

眨眼就到了2010年，自己好像还活在梦中，睁开眼睛就已经去到了不同的世界中。这一年应该怎么过呢？很多大大小小的问题都必须在这一年解决，也许不可以完全解决，但最起码要定好解决的方针，那样走起来还是有方向的。今年我的学生签证就到期了，要继续攻读，还是工作，这还是要好好考虑的。毕竟学生签证要容易的多，但当然花的錢也多；至于工作签证，如果找到公司肯担保的話，其实不難的，但主动权卻握在别人手中。留是要留的，但要怎么留，就还是一个问号！

在外两年了，没有回过家，不是不想念，但就是不想回。不过今年会回去的，必须要回去一趟，要不然就要被投诉了。也许我已经找到我自己觉得最舒适的生活，所以才没有回家的冲动吧。留恋家乡的亲人和朋友，但卻更想要创造属于神的未来，也许，这就是我改变的原因吧。不想在这里多说关于神的事，因为那是需要亲身体会的，說再多只会令人厌烦，从而使大家之间的关系恶化。现在能做的只有祷告，为拒绝神的人祷告。

关于我的未来，仍然有很多不稳定因素环绕四周。但我相信我有能力跨越所有的难关，因为神会赐予我无尽的力量继续走下去。那是一种无法用语言形容的、像是虚无的关系，但我相信他存在的真实性。不必多言，信仰就是信仰！

God's answer

2009-11-26T21:17:00.005+11:00

She is the answer given from God. How amazing our God is!!Now I know how God actually works in my life. Just need to put our faith in God, then he will show us how he works step by step. Praise God!

My children

2009-11-14T12:11:00.002+11:00

2009.11.13.
很快又过了两个星期了，时间为什么就过得那么快呢？实习的时间虽然辛苦，但个中的快乐卻无与伦比。當你看到那些可爱的小朋友笑的时候，什么难熬的状况都会被忘记，因为他们的笑容胜过一切。
How time flies! Three weeks already passed. There's one more week to go then I will finish my third placement. It is hard time for me to deal with physical work and paper study at the same time. However, whenever I see the smile of children, I just feel very warm and satisfied. Whatever things that made me upset would just be forgotten. I'm pretty sure that I have been being trained as a mother by God's desire. That's a special feeling. Just don't know why I feel that God has prepared someone in my life. Hehe, that's such a good feeling because I found out that I have kind of patience to look after children which I didn't even think about before. Hahaha, isn't it strange? Now I want to raise up my own children as Jesus. That will be amazing! Hope that God will send me a nice husband and my lovely own children!Praise God!!

Surprising Party

2009-11-03T13:07:00.003+11:00

2009.11.3.
上周末是今生难忘的一个周末，有史以来第一次的惊喜生日会，让我感激万分。感动过后让我头疼的是我居然如此愚钝，居然懵懵懂懂地在猜测中度过两个星期，还以为自己什么都知道呢！！天啊，我的敏感度真的是零鸡蛋啦！蠢蠢蠢！自这次party我弄出了两个大笑话，連自己都觉得不可思议。两个猜想都离题十万八千里遠，还有是天下最搞笑、最无知的猜想，搞得我的韩国姐姐笑得睡不着覺！天啊，自此以后我的英明就荡然无存啦！蠢猪啊！她说我的层次太低了，什么人都可以骗我，就算有破绽我都不能发现，我都快羞死了！现在回想一下，这两个星期的我一直沉浸在自己的愉悦猜测中，而她们就像看戏一样看我的反应，而且那些反应都成为大笑话，天啊，蠢死啦！！！哈哈哈！不过还是很开心，因为我认为不可能的事发生了，那就是给我的最大惊喜！

还记得那一刻，我看到她出现在我的眼前，那是惊喜！惊喜的是她没有去工作，惊喜的是她和牧师有说有笑，惊喜的是她居然出现在那里！本来没有打算哭的我，不知怎么的，眼泪一下子就涌了出來。可恶的她还在隔壁大叫：“Hey, mandy ya!Not enough tear!!!”搞得我都不知道要哭还是笑。不管怎么样，我的生日愿望实现了，感谢主！感谢主，让我们知道我们并不孤单；感谢主，用您的热情和怜悯软化我们的心；感谢主，用您的神奇力量使我们聚集一起，分享您的荣耀！无尽的感激尽在不言中！Thank you L.S.C.C.!!Thank you SuJeong Onniiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!Thank you Jesus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

祝我生日快乐

2009-10-31T01:22:00.003+11:00

2009.10.31.

31号凌晨，蜷缩着劳累的身躯，硬撑着闭合的眼睛，轻弹指尖間留下此刻的心情。有点儿兴奋，有点儿彷徨，有点儿无奈，但更多的是无限的期望！已经走过人生的四分之一历程，个中的酸甜苦辣旁人无法领会。这个星期，有两天在回程的汽车上沉睡，有两天在回程的汽车上流泪。总是在問自己活着的意义，一个跟随你一辈子的问题，到什么时候才能找到答案？其实很简单，我知道是什么，卻总是被这纷扰的世界扰乱我的视线！我知道我可以的，在大家的爱戴中成长，无论多难都是幸福的！祝我生日快乐！

A lesson for Eva & me

2009-10-19T18:54:00.003+11:00

We are from different country, but we are at the same age; we are studying the same course; we are interested in art; and both of us believe Jesus. Yet, we still depend on our parents; we cannot identify ourselves; and we are somehow still lost. Fortunately, God sent us to here, God let us meet each other. What does he mean? We need to grow! Growing under God's glory; growing under God's power; growing for God's will! We need to be strong! Strong enough to live our daily life; strong enough to be independent; strong enough to handle any temptation and distraction. That's why we are here at this specific moment.

小聚

2009-10-10T10:07:00.002+11:00

2009.10.10.
昨晚睡得很晚，和朋友吃完“晚餐”回家已经12點了。打开电脑查一下邮件，没有收到所期待的，有点儿失落，但我知道她一定会回来的，我了解她。启动QQ，看到“四人帮”众幫友都在线，不禁又发起一片牢骚战争，哈哈哈，非常enjoy！Ivy还是那么伶牙俐齿，君君还是一样无辜受“攻击”，至于DogDog也一样保持沉默，偶尔叫一下证明她的存在！哈哈哈，我想她们都很好，看到她们国庆一起去旅行的照片，突然羡慕得不得了。我什么时候可以回去汇合众幫友召开幫庆大会呢？哇哈哈，听到Ivy說她们会组幫造访墨尔本，不禁一阵感动！希望这玩笑有一天能实现！
昨天还和另外一位好友闲谈了一会儿，我们的中文系高材生高翔小姐。从她口中听到了生活的乐趣和无奈，我知道已经定好工作目标的她一定能成功完成任务的。虽然我们都不善于表達情感，但我们都会偶尔想起对方，因为我们彼此在对方心中都已经定位好了。希望这种无声胜有声的深厚情谊能持续到白发年华！
现在想想，在广州的好友都应该找到自己的生活定位了吧？呵呵，恭喜她们！也祝福她们！也期待她们能为我祷告，請神明示指点正确的方向。人生是短暂的，但也必须活得有意义。希望我的选择能更靠近神的同时也拉近友人間心灵距离！Amen！

My photos' link:
http://imgcache.qq.com/qzone/client/photo/swf/vphoto.swf?uin=223521569&fid=36321

哀嚎

2009-10-07T23:50:00.001+11:00

人生变化无常，孰可料未来之事，孰不骇亡者之讯？怜者，秀贞矣！上周午夜，忽闻她父病逝噩耗，悲痛哭嚎，哀声抢地，闻者心酸。为孝者，即日越洋奔丧，尚无音讯！呜呼，哀哉！号众人为其祷告！

Shopping in Chadyy

2009-09-28T10:54:00.002+10:00

hehe, Sayma & me went shopping last Saturday!!!It was fun!!!

狂恋

2009-09-19T12:05:00.001+10:00

2009.9.19.

在阳光明媚的清晨，躺卧于寝室当中，仰望着窗外被微风轻抚的嫩叶，听着不合情调的苏打绿最新专辑，突然觉得原来生活可以这么逍遥。悠悠地换上至爱陈绮贞的《狂恋》，细细品位词曲中的韵味，为何她的歌能如此打动我？喜欢她娇柔的声线，喜欢那不快不慢的Bass拨奏，更喜欢那规律性重复的bⅦ弦乐声效，让我彷佛遨游于万里晴空，接收着清新空气和轻柔微风的洗礼。“請让我延续所有的思念......所有的......思念......我提着一个简简单单的行礼，要安静走出对你的狂恋......"清脆而纤细的钢琴半音，低沉而宽厚的大提琴衬底，再有陈绮贞最擅长的喃喃细语，营造出完美的宁静气氛。可见，“狂恋”不需要人们所期待的轰轰烈烈，“狂恋”最完美的表现莫过于沉默。用眼睛看穿心意，用掌心的温度取代话语，用微笑诉说感动，那是如此完美的爱情！

难倒我开始恋爱了？对象是誰呢？我内心的空缺有谁可以填补呢？就是他，心中的他，天上的神。能让我完全信任的他，能让我尽吐真言的他，能让我全心臣服的他。他是我的唯一，我也是他的唯一。就是那么简单，简单得就如一张白纸，一张没有任何文字、图像的白纸，卻让人有无限的想像空间。狂恋，就是如此简单......

How time flies...

2009-08-22T00:18:00.002+10:00

After a wonderful birthday party, I checked my mail and found that mum had sent me some pics. I cannot believe that they look older now. Suddenly I feel guilty because I do nothing for them. At my age, I should look after my family instead of being care. What am I doing in Melbourne now? Getting lost again. Thanks God that I am in a fantastic church and have so many kind friends. That's God's blessing. Hope God bless my family as well. Even though they do not know God at this moment but I am sure that God will guide them to the right direction. Thanks God again.

City of Memory

2009-07-16T21:05:00.001+10:00

Memory is created everyday by everyone.

It may be happy.

It may be sentimetal.

It makes you laugh.

It makes you whimper.

We are living in the City of Memory which some how is in our heart.

We are travelling around the City of Memory and seeking things that should not be forgotten.

Yet, what do we find out?

Nothing can be changed in the City of Memory.

Everything has been recorded by the Lord God Almighty.

Everyone will not be judged until the very end.

Shall we stay in the City of Memory instead of moving on?

Second year

2009-07-13T21:03:00.002+10:00

2009-07-10T18:01:00.003+10:00

Static
&
dynamic

Faithfulness
&
Suspicion

Enjoying

2009-07-08T11:32:00.004+10:00

I am enjoying my life in Melbourne instead of worry and depression. I thought I have found things that I were seeking for a long time. However, I realize that I cannot just enjoy what I have received. Have to do something more than just receiving. Suddenly, I am longing to stay here. Not because of the benefits that I will be able to gain, but things that I can do to all other people. For instance my little 'daughter' in placement, my younger brother in workplace, all my friends in LSCC and the one I haven't met yet. I will try my best to find out the meaningful life according to God's will.

The last question: What is the purpose of life?

Do you think this question is difficult to answer?

New pic

2009-07-04T12:33:00.001+10:00

Another start

2009-06-29T02:02:00.004+10:00

2009. 6. 29.

新一周的凌晨时分，丝丝的寒意静悄悄地侵袭着我的身体，虽然暖气开着，但因为雪糕的关系，还是感觉到寒冷。今天，呃……应该是昨天，是在素食馆工作的最后一天。虽然只有半天，但还是感觉到压力，因为脑海中总是想着将要脱离餐馆的魔掌，所以无法集中精神工作。居然在最后一天也让老板抓到很多小辫子，真是遗憾啊！没能让他对我留下好的印象！哈哈！不过，出乎我意料之外，除了基本工资之外，老板還额外給了点儿錢，说是給我喝茶的。呵呵，虽然他是出了名的難对付头号人物，不过对于无心恋战的我还是给予最后的“安慰”，是不是应该感激他呢？我想答案是肯定的，无论我们之间相处得如何，毕竟他是老人家，还是应该尊重他的。谢谢他在将近一年时间里对我的“照顾”，他讓我学会了很多，当然这是发生在我没有改变原则的基础上。学会善待所有人，不要和别人起任何冲突，他确实教了我很多。

上个星期发生了很多事情，在急于寻找新工作的同时，我实习的幼儿园居然打电话給我叫我过去工作。虽然指示casual on call，但这对于我是极大的鼓励。因为这是我在澳正式从事工作的开始，为什么这么重要？因为这里一切都讲求经验，一旦有了工作经验就比较容易找到工作。尽管我的工作时间不多也不固定，但有正式的工资单和纳税单就等于是闖開了新大门，是另一个新开始。我不奢求能像steph那样这么快就找到固定的工作，因为这也是要讲求运气的。但能拿到“入场券”我已经是万幸了！不是每个人都有这样的机会，要好好地把握！现在的心情既兴奋又有一点儿焦虑，毕竟工作时间有限，机票的问题还没解决，才发现如果我交了机票的錢，活期账户就一分钱都没有了。刚好也忘记定期什么时候到期，所以现在的我流动基金有点儿麻烦。不过没关系的，坚持祈祷，我相信God会在我身上继续施行神迹。就像出乎意料的phone call，讓我签了在这里的第一份工作合同。很明显，这是再一次的神迹！

对于工作不想再谈太多，希望你們也能为我祈祷，支持我继续往前走。当然我也会为你們祷告，无论现在你們面對什么问题，告诉我，我会为你們做力所能及的事。可能我不能马上飞到你們身边，但有什么比心的交流更重要？！我不肯定我能百分之百理解你們现在的感受，你們正在经历的状况，但我知道，我和我的朋友们有一种无声胜有声的默契！我无时无刻都在回憶着我们共同度过所有光阴，那是最宝贵的回憶。不要因为那遥远的距离而讓我们疏离，因为我们的心是连在一起的。當你們看到这些文字的时候可能会想，这么肉麻的东西怎会出自我手？！那是不可想象的！我知道，因为从前的我是不善于表達的人，是个很会在别人面前耍cool的人，甚至是属于个性怪异的人。但现在的我改变了，不需要伪装，不需要矜持，把自己的感情毫无保留地和身边的人分享，那是一种福份。我想接下来我要說的你們也一定猜到，这种福份源于谁呢？！

Just cry out for God, paise him, worship him by my heart and soul. He is the one who always be with us and has already planned everything for us. He knew everything before we were born and chose everything for us such like skin colour, nationality, personality and so on. He is the only one who is the real light to guide us to go into his kingdom. How great is our God!How powerful our God he is!He is full of compassion, perseverance, mercy, wisdom and LOVE!How GREAT is our God!!!And I thank you for your forgiveness. Because of your forgiveness, I am able to leave my sinful past completely and I am having my new life under your glory. Thanks for everything that you offer and bless me. I really feel your presence even though I cannot use proper words to describe your existence. I pray that all of my families and friends are able to feel your presence and your glory as well. I pray that Jesus you just open their eyes, open their hearts to see what you have done for them. I pray that Jesus you can send your holy spirit to cover all of their bodies and work on them. Let them know who you are, let them know your words, let them feel your LOVE. I pray in Jesus mighty name, Amen!!!

Farewell Card

2009-06-26T17:42:00.005+10:00

Have I changed a bit?

2009-06-23T15:14:00.003+10:00